Never Give Up!
It has been a rough week for me. I blame drumpf.
Dave got a cold and I got bronchitis. Don’t ask me why because, if I knew that I could defend against it. It’s been a few years since I’ve had this perpetual coughing jag and I wasn’t missing it, that’s for sure.
Of course, I waited until I simply couldn’t take the coughing any longer before I went to the doctor. After a good listen to the rattling chest she came back into the room with a nebulizer for me to suck on while she ordered up x-rays to decide if it was bronchitis or pneumonia. Oh, joy! I’ve had both and neither brings an enjoyable experience.
The nebulizer sucking made me dizzy so I slowly made my way home so that Dave could drive me to get the x-ray. It was quick and painless, except for the constant croaking sounds coming out of my chest and through my mouth, scaring others in the waiting room. Fortunately, I guess, it was the lesser of the two evils, bronchitis.
I had to wait for them to call the doctor with the results so she could call in prescriptions for me. It was quite a haul, I must say, and each one said in bold black letters across the top: ACUTE!
Ok, no messing around. I got an inhaler, steroids, cough medicine, and an anti-biotic. I loaded up as soon as we got home then went to bed. There was no real rest to be had with the constant croaking. Dave decided to sleep on the couch and I certainly couldn’t blame him! Buddy, however, never left my side.
When the cough meds started to kick in I began to relax a bit but, when I would turn on my side it sounded like pop rocks and rice krispies going off in my chest and echoing in my ears. I never sleep on my back, but the noise was driving me crazy, so I forced myself. It was a fitful night.
The next day was no better, in fact, it was worse. I hadn’t eaten much, which in hindsight wasn’t the brightest move but, I had no appetite. I took the 2nd day of meds and then came the shit storm. Literally.
Fortunately, the bathroom isn’t far from the bed so I made it just under the wire! I was surprised anything was coming out because not much had gone in for over 24 hours. Dave looked up the possible side effects of the ACUTE! drugs and it turned out the anti-biotic they gave me had diarrhea as the 1st side effect.
I called the doctor and they prescribed a different one but, it took a while to get the other one completely out of my system. I still had no appetite but tried to eat some toast which flew through me.
As you can imagine, this was exhausting. I would reach a pinnacle of exhaustion and basically pass out. I could feel a bit of improvement after each hour or two of sleep and by Sunday afternoon I was feeling like it was not going to kill me. I took a long nap in the afternoon and was able to watch the Oscars.
Dave made me scrambled eggs for dinner on Monday and that helped a lot. My logical mind knew that the number of drugs vs. lack of food was not helping but, food hadn’t interested me for days.
Whenever I get sick I pull out Louise Hay’s book, ‘You Can Heal Your Life’. She has a list in that book with the header:
PROBLEM PROBABLE CAUSE NEW THOUGHT PATTERN
It’s a way of examining the ailment you’re dealing with and probable causes being, perhaps, mental and/or emotional. I knew when I went for the x-ray it wasn’t pneumonia because, according to Ms. Hay’s book, pneumonia is basically giving up on life. I wasn’t there. But bronchitis is about anger. Being in an inflamed environment.
Aren’t we all living in an inflamed environment these days? I believe we are. No matter which side you’re on, life is not normal anymore. Every day there’s another ‘crisis’ to deal with. People fearful of losing their health care, immigrants terrified of being deported, families torn apart all because of a would-be demagogue who’s really the puppet of his own Rasputin.
I’m not giving up or giving in to their fear tactics and hate. We are smarter than that and we are the majority. I may have had a little health derailment but, it reminded me how important it is to stay strong and never give in.
How are you holding up?